March 19th and 20th I’ll be in Shirdi. Am feeling very happy to even think of being in Shirdi. Shirdi is the only place where my heart feels at home. I am going to see my “Sai Baba” again. Baba has changed my life in many ways. He has given me everything that I had asked for. I need to thank him now for always being with me. My life has changed to a great deal since last year and it’s just because of the God’s love for me, but even after having all these I still feel detached. There is still pain in my heart. God you do so many things to keep me happy but I do not want to live, my enjoyment is not here but it’s with you. Father, even now I would say that my greatest Joy would be to reach you. Earth is nothing but material pleasure. There is no happiness without pain, no gain without a loss. This is a fake world, it just keeps balancing itself between positive and negative; and, you are the One who keep balancing it for reasons which no one knows. You teach great deal, you tempt with happiness and see if we are able to accept the sadness which comes along with it. You want us to see both happiness and sadness in the same way. You want us to become neutral (detached) with this world. God, I would like to say this to you. I do not have courage on my own to face all these things. I do not know, how I had survived all this through these many years. I do not know what you have planned for my future. I plead you not to test me more. My heart is weak and I know nothing but to cry, please give me strength and please let me hold on to my faith on you for now and forever.
This picture of Baba teaches me to live simple and learn to stay neutral with the worldly changes.
